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LIMITLESS ME ♥♥♥

Sometimes I wake up feeling so imperfect and sad. Like today, I don’t feel oooohsofab about a lot of things. So, I decided to write hoping that by the end of this post, I’ll get to realize something and feel a little better :)

Everyday is still a struggle, unfortunately, feeling happy and contented is not like a software which everyone of us is programmed to feel. I know I should be very thankful with everything that’s going on in my life but poor me, I get blinded by fear and insecurities. 

Yes, my life isn’t perfect and glittery all the time but I still believe that I have the power to control how I feel. 

Last Friday, I woke up full of fears. Fear of not being efficient at work and in school both at the same time. I’m afraid to fail and I was so scared to go to work and get my schedule and subject load but then I know that I have to. I went to work and attended the meeting, thank God, my co-professors are all kind and they made me feel at home. God is so great that in that simple meeting, He was able to remind me that there’s a lot to celebrate in life. I then remembered this quote from Marilyn Monroe ~

“A wise girl knows her limits, a smart girl knows that she has none.”

In a snap of several fabulous seconds, this quote shoo away all my fears. Instead of being scared, why don’t I just get ready and arm myself with lots of positive and glittery vibes for this battle that I’m about to face ♥

After all, life is a never ending gamble. The higher you risk, the more you gain ♥♥♥

I may not be always on top of everything but I am happy because I know I can be fabulous whether I’m at the bottom, middle, or even anywhere in between ♥♥♥

yes.yes.yes.yes.NOOOO! ;)

Saying NO is sometimes braver than always saying yes.

Yesterday, I had to make a very tough decision. AMA called me and asked if I can go for full time teaching even for just one trimester. I know I promised dad to just take a very minimal load but this offer made me think. Of course, giving up law school will never be a choice but what I am planning to do is to  go full time both at work and in school. 

Maybe, one of my life’s principles made me think this way. I strongly believe that a well lived life should only consist of very few “what ifs” .  I’d be a hypocrite if I would say that I am totally unafraid of failing and getting hurt but honestly, I would opt to cry because of failure than to wonder forever because of not trying.

As much as I can, I would love to say YES ALL THE TIME. Yes to trying, No to wondering. But, like all rules, there’s an exception to this one. Maybe this belief isn’t applicable all the time. Maybe not this time :)

After contemplating for several hours, I’ve decided to turn down the beautiful offer, not because I’m afraid of failing but because I realized that LIFE IS NOT JUST ABOUT BEING BRAVE, IT’S ALSO ABOUT BEING WISE  ♥ ♥ ♥

“Princess Teacher”

Hihihi I’m so kilig with my title. Recently, my Prince Charming keeps on calling me “Princess Teacher” :)

Anyhoo, my life has been very busy these past few weeks because I was trying to get something. Something that I’ve been dreaming of for a long time, something really beautiful and worth working for :)

It all started with my random clicking :)) On or about the first week of April, I thought that a part time job sounds good so I updated my resume and submitted it at jobs.db. I clicked random jobs, anything that I think would suit my qualifications was a choice.

Luckily, after a week or so, I got a text message from AMA asking me to give them my free time for an interview :)) I thought that was just for fun so I scheduled it the soonest possible time. I went there and I was shocked when they gave me an exam!!! :)) I’m soo not ready for that huh! Well I answered it anyway and because I’m a lucky girl, I passed it with flying colors! :-) 

After that, the HR interviwed me right away and I am so proud of myself because I felt that I again aced the interview. Before going, I was asked If I want to demo teach right then and there but because I have a date and I believe that HASTE MAKES WASTE, I said no and asked for another schedule. I was scheduled for April 16 but when I called to confirm the schedule they asked me if I’m free the next day, and because I’m such a brave girl, even without a planned lesson, I said YES!

The demo teaching was super fun! I felt like a real teacher, wrting on the whiteboard, discussing, calling students for recit and many more! :)) After the demo teach I was interviewed by the school’s dean and then by the school director. After that I thought I was in but the battle isn’t over yet, the HR head told me that they would call me for my final interview. So I waited, just when I thought that there’s no hope for me to get the job, the HR called me and gave me a schedule! 

I went to the main office and tadddddah! Hihihihi after 30 minutes or so, I just heard Ms. Roma sayng, you passed the final screening. Just wait for the instructions from the HR.

Again, waiting in vain, I learned that even if I passed the final interview, I could only get in if they decided to give me a subject load because they have to fill the load of regular professors first. I almost gave up and accept another job offer from a different school, same teaching position, but I don’t like the other school’s ambiance so I hold back :))

Luckily, because of my glittery hope and everyday prayers, the HR called me and asked me to complete all my requirements because THEY WILL BE HIRING ME AS A PART TIME PROFESSOR! :) This news was one of the sweetest news so far :)

With all these ups and downs, I realized that as long I believe and dream, nothing is impossible. God is so smart that he knows everything that’s best for us, maybe I got this job because this is for me and God wants me to step up my career.

I know this is not a joke because this might affect my law school, but I promised mom, dad, and myself that being a Princess Teacher will never ever distract me from finishing law school, instead it will be my tool in order to learn the art of time management!

This was once a dream but I was able to bring it to life! 

Dreams do come true, if only we knew how to pursue ♥

My Princess Teacher look during the final interview :)

Hey Beautiful! ♥♥♥

Beautiful. Big word? YES. I personally believe that beauty should never be given a specific meaning so as to limit its definition. 

These past few days, I was able to see a kind of beauty that I think would never ever fade. 

My mom’s cousin from Cebu, Tita Angelie, is very beautiful.

She has this very cute and funny way of speaking not because she’s a Cebuana but because she is loud and she talks really really fast. Her hair was kind of “sabog”  because of the confused curls :))and her skin is far from perfect. She is NOT into dressing up like barbie dolls and she’s a bit tomboyish. 

Despite all these flaws, for me she is still beautiful. Very beautiful.

Last April 25, I tagged her along with my little sister, Venus and my Prince Charming, Elvis. We went to Eastwood to have coffee and to show her the dancing fountain :D I lend her my dress, curled her hair and used my magical make up kit! I dolled her up and she was so glad, kind of uneasy but very proud. 

While having coffee, she was quiet and demure (‘cause I told her to be!!!) 

Then I realized that she is so much prettier with her humor and loudness on :)

She may not be the dream girl and a barbie-look alike but she is a lovely lady. She may not have that perfect face and that sexy class but still she got that humor that can make us laugh. She has so much to be proud of that others have neglected to appreciate just because she is not the typical beauty we were used to. 

Many of us are like Tita Angelie, Beautiful but Unappreciated. 

Let us not allow others to define beauty for us. Nobody’s beauty should ever be taken for granted. We may not be flawless and perfect but we can still be beautiful, if only we will learn to show the beauty that’s inside of us.

Cheers to you beautiful reader! ♥♥♥